Remembering for just a minute...to take a breath and be thankful.
There, that's better.
Today...is not as havoc filled as I thought it would be. I have an exam to take...that I should be a lot more stressed about. I am not :) I have a lot of projects going on right now...and they're all coming together so nicely. Again, not stressed. It is amazing the burden that you give up when you fully depend on God to really get you through.
Yes, I am a recovering control freak...seriously, you guys have NO idea. Many people that read this *or don't* think I am the most easy going nicest person...really y'all? Talk to my sister...she'll let you know. She's known me her entire life and I can't believe she still talks to me. Truthfully, it's hard to live that part of my faith...it is such a big part of who I have been...to always be in control of everything...that letting that go is...both freeing and TERRIFYING!
I digress. So, I click a video Dad posted of Bobby McFerrin *please stop now and look him up if you have no idea who I'm talking about, please...please?* Firstly, I could listen to Mr.McFerrin for HOURS. He is a musical genius *anyone reading that knows me, knows how tied to music I am* He has perfect pitch and such a mind for music...it makes me shiver. This is not a video about Mr. McFerrin playing music...it's from the World Science Festival. Go ahead, wait, I'll let you re-read that. Yes, Bobby McFerrin is at the World Science Festival with a panel of neuro-scientists...yes, I'm completely geeking out *if you really want to know, start a Math and Music discussion with me...and how they are connected to language*
It is amazing to me how happy this one video made me. I then start going to the famous YouTube to find me some cello to listen to while I study and work. I found...many pieces I could not stand. LOL So I'm a music snob too...remember, I'm working on all that ;) lol
I forgot how much I adore classical music...the joy a cello brings to my soul.
I know this is a rambly not so sense making entry...but in the end. I want to share that when you give things to God completely, the joy in life just comes bubbling up (we talked about this in connection group last night...interestingly enough)
What inspires you? What brings joy into your life?
I think I may see about joining a choir again. It's been too long....
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Caught in the whirlwind...
So, it's been forever and I haven't posted nearly what I should be. Making sure I take the time I need to be taking. Maybe I have too many excuses. I'm not sure at this point. Something I am sure about it that I need to get back to it. I know sometimes trying to have an organized framework for the day can be a bit much...but it helps in many departments of life.
Babbling...
What happens when you feel yourself cut off a bit from things? Do you promise yourself (yet again) that you'll just make the time for the things that you've been missing out on? I mean...when the day only has so many hours...which ones do you dedicate? Eh...this is sounding like a downer blog and it's really not meant to be. Just feeling like I'm kind of letting things slip and then saying I just didn't have enough time to not let that happen...w/e.
I am...beyond blessed at this point. I may feel kind of like crud...but it's not going to last forever. Drink more water and take a couple Ibuprofen and I'll be fine ;)
I actually wanted to talk today about the lessons I'm learning through working with the kids at church.
I think I need to do a quick update to get to that point though.
It's been a few weeks not since a couple BIG changes happened in our lives. To get you up to speed, Brian and I were waking up early most mornings to get him to his job at Joanns and I was working at the position in the Real Estate company...we had moved into our own place at the end of February and we were working our way toward plans for the future.
Brian and I were both working on our licenses and trying to get in family time....keeping busy. I took over the 0 to 5 groups in the kids' ministry at church. Loved getting it up and going, getting some organization in an area that had gotten some people to the point of giving up. A new breath into the areas.
About 5 or 6 weeks ago, Brian came to the conclusion that he was spending most of his week not going toward the goals he had put down and not doing what God was wanting him to do. We talked about it, we prayed about it and a couple days later...he put in his two weeks. We were both so at peace with the choice.
The day that was Brian's last at Joanns, also ended up being a two week notice for a very dear friend of ours from the kid's ministry. Through prayer and consideration, he was moving out of the ministry and the board and church asked us if we felt we were called to step in.
That brings you to today. We both work at Yager Realty now. Brian helps out with a lot of the marketing side while he finishes his classes for his license. We are the new directors of the kid's ministry (newborn to 6th grade) Working toward God's vision of this area of the church. How to make it a part of the church while still making it the kid's area. Now we have meetings and parents and all sorts of fun things :)
Now, we've been helping in the kid's ministry most of the year that we've been attending the Quest. So, we're used to the set up and having done the 0 - 5s for the past couple months, we're used to the needs of organization. What I'm finding more and more is that the lessons that are being taught to the kids in 0-5 and then k-6 are the same ones I need to hear over and over again. I have those secrets tied to my heart...but getting on the floor and playing with the kids to help them understand...helps me.
I have this problem you see...I'm an adult. I know...it's sad. I tend to try to organize things and control things. I make these lists and work through getting them done. It's a sad state of affairs sometimes. Working with the youngest of God's beloveds has really helped me get back to the basic truths of my love relationship with my Heavenly Father. Not only that...but it reminds me weekly how much God is waiting for me to fully rely on Him. This month for the 3-5s is about the fact that God always knows what's good for us...in the K-6, it's all about grace...getting something you don't really deserve. How basic are those thoughts in our walk? How often do we forget it.
I'm working on being less of an adult...or maybe just getting rid of what most people think it means to be an adult. I still have responsibilities...but I need to rely fully on God's way of providing for me...because He will, no matter what. He takes care of the little birds flying around outside and thinks I am much more dear than them.
Seek first His kingdom.... ;)
Babbling...
What happens when you feel yourself cut off a bit from things? Do you promise yourself (yet again) that you'll just make the time for the things that you've been missing out on? I mean...when the day only has so many hours...which ones do you dedicate? Eh...this is sounding like a downer blog and it's really not meant to be. Just feeling like I'm kind of letting things slip and then saying I just didn't have enough time to not let that happen...w/e.
I am...beyond blessed at this point. I may feel kind of like crud...but it's not going to last forever. Drink more water and take a couple Ibuprofen and I'll be fine ;)
I actually wanted to talk today about the lessons I'm learning through working with the kids at church.
I think I need to do a quick update to get to that point though.
It's been a few weeks not since a couple BIG changes happened in our lives. To get you up to speed, Brian and I were waking up early most mornings to get him to his job at Joanns and I was working at the position in the Real Estate company...we had moved into our own place at the end of February and we were working our way toward plans for the future.
Brian and I were both working on our licenses and trying to get in family time....keeping busy. I took over the 0 to 5 groups in the kids' ministry at church. Loved getting it up and going, getting some organization in an area that had gotten some people to the point of giving up. A new breath into the areas.
About 5 or 6 weeks ago, Brian came to the conclusion that he was spending most of his week not going toward the goals he had put down and not doing what God was wanting him to do. We talked about it, we prayed about it and a couple days later...he put in his two weeks. We were both so at peace with the choice.
The day that was Brian's last at Joanns, also ended up being a two week notice for a very dear friend of ours from the kid's ministry. Through prayer and consideration, he was moving out of the ministry and the board and church asked us if we felt we were called to step in.
That brings you to today. We both work at Yager Realty now. Brian helps out with a lot of the marketing side while he finishes his classes for his license. We are the new directors of the kid's ministry (newborn to 6th grade) Working toward God's vision of this area of the church. How to make it a part of the church while still making it the kid's area. Now we have meetings and parents and all sorts of fun things :)
Now, we've been helping in the kid's ministry most of the year that we've been attending the Quest. So, we're used to the set up and having done the 0 - 5s for the past couple months, we're used to the needs of organization. What I'm finding more and more is that the lessons that are being taught to the kids in 0-5 and then k-6 are the same ones I need to hear over and over again. I have those secrets tied to my heart...but getting on the floor and playing with the kids to help them understand...helps me.
I have this problem you see...I'm an adult. I know...it's sad. I tend to try to organize things and control things. I make these lists and work through getting them done. It's a sad state of affairs sometimes. Working with the youngest of God's beloveds has really helped me get back to the basic truths of my love relationship with my Heavenly Father. Not only that...but it reminds me weekly how much God is waiting for me to fully rely on Him. This month for the 3-5s is about the fact that God always knows what's good for us...in the K-6, it's all about grace...getting something you don't really deserve. How basic are those thoughts in our walk? How often do we forget it.
I'm working on being less of an adult...or maybe just getting rid of what most people think it means to be an adult. I still have responsibilities...but I need to rely fully on God's way of providing for me...because He will, no matter what. He takes care of the little birds flying around outside and thinks I am much more dear than them.
Seek first His kingdom.... ;)
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Much too long
Where has the time gone? Why haven't I made it a point to be here more often? Simple answer? I just didn't think I had enough time. From being up late to prep for things, getting the office ready for an audit and visitors...I was totally beat.
But, that's not an excuse that should ever work.
This morning I read my devotion and was so convicted by the verse and writing. The title was, "Time is in His Hands." Joshua 10:13 being the verse.
God has set our schedule into motion, no matter what we think we need to get done. Did you know on days like today, when I put my time with God first, I end up having more time? LOL Seems weird, but I feel like it. I get more done and feel more accomplished at the end of the day. I'm not as stressed and I don't feel like I have to run around crazy either.
So...who sets your schedule? :)
But, that's not an excuse that should ever work.
This morning I read my devotion and was so convicted by the verse and writing. The title was, "Time is in His Hands." Joshua 10:13 being the verse.
God has set our schedule into motion, no matter what we think we need to get done. Did you know on days like today, when I put my time with God first, I end up having more time? LOL Seems weird, but I feel like it. I get more done and feel more accomplished at the end of the day. I'm not as stressed and I don't feel like I have to run around crazy either.
So...who sets your schedule? :)
Monday, March 7, 2011
The Verse That Made Me Cringe - Lisa Turkhurst
Good morning readers!
Today I am working from home...and it is liberating! LOL
Today's Scripture: 1 Corinthians 6:19
This devotion is interesting because Lisa uses another story to demonstrate how serious God really is about His temple.
A lot of the time, especially as women, we become complacent in what our body, God's living temple, really is like. As a Christian, I'm convicted day in and day out for the choices I've made in what I"m eating. Don't get me wrong, I don't dwell on the past, I know that won't get me anywhere, but I do think on what I have and have not done. Do I eat like I should? Most of the time, yes...but I definitely don't make the best choices all the time.
I think of this morning and I know I've made good choices...then I look at this afternoon and think - oh my! I need to think on what I'm going to have for lunch...as it's coming!
The story in Haggai that Lisa goes into talks about how God wanted them to take care of and build His home, but that the Jewish people had come out of Babylon and concerned themselves with their own homes and their own agendas first. This is me! I don't have time to work out today God, I am WAY too busy...right? Wrong! I know that I have time for everything God wants from me...I just choose to do the things that hold more sway (in my mind...sorta) I mean, all of God's plan should be what I concern myself with first and foremost. I'll make excuses for not having time for the mindless....
A lot of my church family are going to take part of a connection group called "Healthy For Life". It's a nutrition course more than anything, but it also talks about how to treat yourself. Yet another group of my church family are all doing P90X...I know...it's crazy! But...when you think about it, they're really trying to care for God's temple.
So, I can make the choice to put more into the temple God has given me, because He has also given me His spirit to dwell in that temple. I can make a choice to also make time for God's wants in my day. Not just my own.
What choices are you going to make?
Today I am working from home...and it is liberating! LOL
Today's Scripture: 1 Corinthians 6:19
This devotion is interesting because Lisa uses another story to demonstrate how serious God really is about His temple.
A lot of the time, especially as women, we become complacent in what our body, God's living temple, really is like. As a Christian, I'm convicted day in and day out for the choices I've made in what I"m eating. Don't get me wrong, I don't dwell on the past, I know that won't get me anywhere, but I do think on what I have and have not done. Do I eat like I should? Most of the time, yes...but I definitely don't make the best choices all the time.
I think of this morning and I know I've made good choices...then I look at this afternoon and think - oh my! I need to think on what I'm going to have for lunch...as it's coming!
The story in Haggai that Lisa goes into talks about how God wanted them to take care of and build His home, but that the Jewish people had come out of Babylon and concerned themselves with their own homes and their own agendas first. This is me! I don't have time to work out today God, I am WAY too busy...right? Wrong! I know that I have time for everything God wants from me...I just choose to do the things that hold more sway (in my mind...sorta) I mean, all of God's plan should be what I concern myself with first and foremost. I'll make excuses for not having time for the mindless....
A lot of my church family are going to take part of a connection group called "Healthy For Life". It's a nutrition course more than anything, but it also talks about how to treat yourself. Yet another group of my church family are all doing P90X...I know...it's crazy! But...when you think about it, they're really trying to care for God's temple.
So, I can make the choice to put more into the temple God has given me, because He has also given me His spirit to dwell in that temple. I can make a choice to also make time for God's wants in my day. Not just my own.
What choices are you going to make?
Friday, March 4, 2011
Blooming...
Not going to lie...I have spring fever! Bad! I want to go run around outside. I totally understand twitterpation! :) lol
Looking at the beautiful cherry blossom tree outside just makes me marvel. It had 4 blooms on it at the beginning of this week. Monday, when it was cold and gloomy. Today it is covered is light pink flowers and unfurling maroon leaves. It is just breath taking! It's a happy little tree in the parking lot...but it makes me want to go sit and read a book in the park. Makes me stop and look at the day and what I'm concentrating on.
Be and I finally have the computer set up in spare oom. It's pretty amazing. We got a lot done yesterday. Yager1 said to take yesterday off as B was off. It was nice. We slept in, ate nummy breakfast (made with Crisco, not butter...it worked! LOL So glad to get butter tonight :) ) We went through all our books and a lot of spare oom. That room will take a while to get all the way done. There is so much to that room...plus we need a futon. :) I can start working from home too...which is nice with the gas prices going up.
We're definitely excited to have our own space and spread out a little. I'll be grabbing the plants here shortly and we'll have mint in our tea in no time :)
I'll also have a space to study and do my daily dose, don't you worry :)
Need to work on my license and get that knocked out ASAP...it'll be good to have that done.
Are you ready for this change? I am. God is so good and has poured out so many blessings on us. I know we struggle and what not...but He has a plan and those struggles are part of the plan :)
M
Looking at the beautiful cherry blossom tree outside just makes me marvel. It had 4 blooms on it at the beginning of this week. Monday, when it was cold and gloomy. Today it is covered is light pink flowers and unfurling maroon leaves. It is just breath taking! It's a happy little tree in the parking lot...but it makes me want to go sit and read a book in the park. Makes me stop and look at the day and what I'm concentrating on.
Be and I finally have the computer set up in spare oom. It's pretty amazing. We got a lot done yesterday. Yager1 said to take yesterday off as B was off. It was nice. We slept in, ate nummy breakfast (made with Crisco, not butter...it worked! LOL So glad to get butter tonight :) ) We went through all our books and a lot of spare oom. That room will take a while to get all the way done. There is so much to that room...plus we need a futon. :) I can start working from home too...which is nice with the gas prices going up.
We're definitely excited to have our own space and spread out a little. I'll be grabbing the plants here shortly and we'll have mint in our tea in no time :)
I'll also have a space to study and do my daily dose, don't you worry :)
Need to work on my license and get that knocked out ASAP...it'll be good to have that done.
Are you ready for this change? I am. God is so good and has poured out so many blessings on us. I know we struggle and what not...but He has a plan and those struggles are part of the plan :)
M
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Goodness me...
So, I haven't posted in FOREVER!
I know I keep saying that I need to get better at this...and then I don't. I really need to make this something I do daily, if not more than once a day.
B and I have our own place now :) We moved this past weekend. It's definitely different. We have a lot of sorting to do. It's kind of crazy. The kitchen is pretty much done...we're moving onto the bedroom tonight :) We watched a movie last night and cuddled in the living room. We've been going since last week so it was nice to get a break...and really be the ones to say that we could! :) B is off work tomorrow so I think he'll be sorting more in spare oom. It's looking like it'll be a good bit of figuring out when it comes to what goes where in there. We have a lot of interests and though most of the gaming stuff will go in the living room, we still have first gen consoles that may be stored until we do a retro night or something.
It's interesting to really see how this step changes our relationship and how God is already using it to shape us and remind us of the things we need to work on daily.
We'll spare oom set up by the end of the weekend I think...and the internet is being turned on tomorrow. Some trepidation about that. We need to set up our Netflix account too. Need to go and change our address on everything, maybe B can swing by the post office tomorrow and file a forwarding card and then we can get through all the places that need to know.
So much to do. So incredibly blessed. So humbled. I need to stay that way and not count my chickens before they're hatched. It's not my own ability that has gotten me here...it's God.
M
I know I keep saying that I need to get better at this...and then I don't. I really need to make this something I do daily, if not more than once a day.
B and I have our own place now :) We moved this past weekend. It's definitely different. We have a lot of sorting to do. It's kind of crazy. The kitchen is pretty much done...we're moving onto the bedroom tonight :) We watched a movie last night and cuddled in the living room. We've been going since last week so it was nice to get a break...and really be the ones to say that we could! :) B is off work tomorrow so I think he'll be sorting more in spare oom. It's looking like it'll be a good bit of figuring out when it comes to what goes where in there. We have a lot of interests and though most of the gaming stuff will go in the living room, we still have first gen consoles that may be stored until we do a retro night or something.
It's interesting to really see how this step changes our relationship and how God is already using it to shape us and remind us of the things we need to work on daily.
We'll spare oom set up by the end of the weekend I think...and the internet is being turned on tomorrow. Some trepidation about that. We need to set up our Netflix account too. Need to go and change our address on everything, maybe B can swing by the post office tomorrow and file a forwarding card and then we can get through all the places that need to know.
So much to do. So incredibly blessed. So humbled. I need to stay that way and not count my chickens before they're hatched. It's not my own ability that has gotten me here...it's God.
M
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Late night rambling
So, I'm at that point this month. All you women out there know it. Men do too...in a different way.
It's just about midnight and I am awake. I should be and want to be cuddling with my husband. Instead I'm here writing.
Am I missing something very serious right now?
I really really enjoy my work...maybe too much. You know, I like to be there, I like to do the tasks that I have. I love the feeling of getting everything together that we need to get together. I'm really starting to get what the escrow process is and I'm really really loving my job. It's interesting how my boss telling me to go home early has made me feel.
I was actually laying in bed tossing and turning trying to figure out what I had done wrong. LOL Can you imagine. Part of it is a miss communication that happened, but I guess it's all good now. I just don't like feeling like I did something insufficient...and I know B is right...but still. Being a perfectionist...super sucky.
In the end though...I really really really really enjoy my work. I didn't know I'd like it so much that going in and staying a little later isn't something I do because I have to or b/c I'm made to, but because I want to. I want to stay there and get through stuff and work for our clients. It's exactly the kind of company I've wanted to work for for the longest time. Fast pace, a lot to do but very much customer oriented. I get to be the good guy and I get to deal with and talk to some really great people. I get to be part of the team of heroes in an industry that traditionally doesn't have many.
I'm learning so much and enjoying it so much I really can't believe it's real. I can see the future of this company and we are growing...like crazy amounts of growth. Isn't the saying that when you find something you enjoy doing it doesn't seem like work anymore? That's exactly where I'm at. I really like it and the hours don't bug me...I want to be there, I want to see people get homes and help people find buyers. It's thrilling. With the training I got this week I feel even better about it. The mind set is really just exactly where I'm at.
In other news...SO MANY PREGNANT PEOPLE! Wow! LOL Suddenly my life filled up with babies! LOL Expecting another nephew in March, Ms.Deer is having a baby here in a few months, The BMK are having another little girl. Goodness!
I feel blessed. I need a little direction from God though. I feel pulled in a couple different directions and I don't know what that all means. I'm exploring some new areas and stretching a bit. I'm helping in a different age group at church right now...and I feel God moving.
Prayers are appreciated. LOL
So, here I sit. Ten after...and thinking that I may just be ready to go to bed...and the little light on my phone starts to flash...maybe Yager 1 is right about those phones...we're too connected...always accessible...but I make the choice right? And if it's someone I want to talk to, I will...if not...I won't. LOL *shrug*
I think my eyes are heavy enough to sleep now. Tomorrow we go to get our taxes done...prayers...again...a lot.
M
It's just about midnight and I am awake. I should be and want to be cuddling with my husband. Instead I'm here writing.
Am I missing something very serious right now?
I really really enjoy my work...maybe too much. You know, I like to be there, I like to do the tasks that I have. I love the feeling of getting everything together that we need to get together. I'm really starting to get what the escrow process is and I'm really really loving my job. It's interesting how my boss telling me to go home early has made me feel.
I was actually laying in bed tossing and turning trying to figure out what I had done wrong. LOL Can you imagine. Part of it is a miss communication that happened, but I guess it's all good now. I just don't like feeling like I did something insufficient...and I know B is right...but still. Being a perfectionist...super sucky.
In the end though...I really really really really enjoy my work. I didn't know I'd like it so much that going in and staying a little later isn't something I do because I have to or b/c I'm made to, but because I want to. I want to stay there and get through stuff and work for our clients. It's exactly the kind of company I've wanted to work for for the longest time. Fast pace, a lot to do but very much customer oriented. I get to be the good guy and I get to deal with and talk to some really great people. I get to be part of the team of heroes in an industry that traditionally doesn't have many.
I'm learning so much and enjoying it so much I really can't believe it's real. I can see the future of this company and we are growing...like crazy amounts of growth. Isn't the saying that when you find something you enjoy doing it doesn't seem like work anymore? That's exactly where I'm at. I really like it and the hours don't bug me...I want to be there, I want to see people get homes and help people find buyers. It's thrilling. With the training I got this week I feel even better about it. The mind set is really just exactly where I'm at.
In other news...SO MANY PREGNANT PEOPLE! Wow! LOL Suddenly my life filled up with babies! LOL Expecting another nephew in March, Ms.Deer is having a baby here in a few months, The BMK are having another little girl. Goodness!
I feel blessed. I need a little direction from God though. I feel pulled in a couple different directions and I don't know what that all means. I'm exploring some new areas and stretching a bit. I'm helping in a different age group at church right now...and I feel God moving.
Prayers are appreciated. LOL
So, here I sit. Ten after...and thinking that I may just be ready to go to bed...and the little light on my phone starts to flash...maybe Yager 1 is right about those phones...we're too connected...always accessible...but I make the choice right? And if it's someone I want to talk to, I will...if not...I won't. LOL *shrug*
I think my eyes are heavy enough to sleep now. Tomorrow we go to get our taxes done...prayers...again...a lot.
M
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