Saturday, February 12, 2011

Late night rambling

So, I'm at that point this month. All you women out there know it. Men do a different way.

It's just about midnight and I am awake. I should be and want to be cuddling with my husband. Instead I'm here writing.

Am I missing something very serious right now?

I really really enjoy my work...maybe too much. You know, I like to be there, I like to do the tasks that I have. I love the feeling of getting everything together that we need to get together. I'm really starting to get what the escrow process is and I'm really really loving my job. It's interesting how my boss telling me to go home early has made me feel.

I was actually laying in bed tossing and turning trying to figure out what I had done wrong. LOL Can you imagine. Part of it is a miss communication that happened, but I guess it's all good now.  I just don't like feeling like I did something insufficient...and I know B is right...but still. Being a perfectionist...super sucky.

In the end though...I really really really really enjoy my work. I didn't know I'd like it so much that going in and staying a little later isn't something I do because I have to or b/c I'm made to, but because I want to. I want to stay there and get through stuff and work for our clients. It's exactly the kind of company I've wanted to work for for the longest time. Fast pace, a lot to do but very much customer oriented. I get to be the good guy and I get to deal with and talk to some really great people. I get to be part of the team of heroes in an industry that traditionally doesn't have many.

I'm learning so much and enjoying it so much I really can't believe it's real. I can see the future of this company and we are crazy amounts of growth. Isn't the saying that when you find something you enjoy doing it doesn't seem like work anymore? That's exactly where I'm at. I really like it and the hours don't bug me...I want to be there, I want to see people get homes and help people find buyers. It's thrilling. With the training I got this week I feel even better about it. The mind set is really just exactly where I'm at.

In other news...SO MANY PREGNANT PEOPLE! Wow! LOL Suddenly my life filled up with babies! LOL Expecting another nephew in March, Ms.Deer is having a baby here in a few months, The BMK are having another little girl. Goodness!

I feel blessed. I need a little direction from God though. I feel pulled in a couple different directions and I don't know what that all means. I'm exploring some new areas and stretching a bit. I'm helping in a different age group at church right now...and I feel God moving.

Prayers are appreciated. LOL

So, here I sit. Ten after...and thinking that I may just be ready to go to bed...and the little light on my phone starts to flash...maybe Yager 1 is right about those phones...we're too connected...always accessible...but I make the choice right? And if it's someone I want to talk to, I will...if not...I won't. LOL *shrug*

I think my eyes are heavy enough to sleep now. Tomorrow we go to get our taxes done...prayers...again...a lot.


Friday, February 4, 2011

Daily Dose...done today!

Today is an amazing day already. I know it will continue to be so, and that all I need to do is connect with my Heavenly Father a little first. (sidenote: my pinwheel just spun a little because of the heater blowing...that was pretty cool...not gonna lie!)

Today's devotion is Do You Have The Time?
Verse: James 4:14

This whole blog is about teens and what is really important to them. What do they want from you as a parent? And what equals love to them? Time. Suzanne did some studying for a book she was writing and in it she sent out a survey. One question gave the kids a choice between a weekend with their parent or a gift certificate to spend at the mall. Most kids said time with a parent. Are you surprised? I'm not.

B and I worked with youth at our last church...he was the youth guy and I was the admin for all the paperwork side of things ;) We worked with a big group of kids spread across 6 thru 12 grade. We contacted them by email, text, name it! We went to camp and made ourselves available pretty much any time during the summer. Why did we spend our time doing this? Because we knew that kids wanted people to spend time with them. When we were getting ready to make our move, it broke our hearts to leave the kids we had spent so much time with. (We left them in good hands though, don't you worry ;) ) The last lesson we did with them was about love. We wanted them to know that they were loved, that we did everything we did with them out of love and that we would not have had that love, had we not had the relationship we did with God. There were times...oh I could tell you stories. If it were not for the steadfast outpouring of God's love into me...I wouldn't have been able to work with them. But I did. And after this lesson, B and I were both crying and you know were the kids. We had invested so much time in them that they understood, with out words, that we loved them.

This devotion doesn't surprise me. Even now, as we're helping in the kids ministry, we're working with a youth junior leadership team...and what do all the kids want? More time!

This devotion also makes me think of the relationship we have with God. If we could just get a little more time with Him, things would be better. Really, He's there all the time :) He's waiting on us to press pause on the rest of the world to spend some time actually talking to Him. He is that parent sitting next to our bed asking us about our day and waiting patiently to hear us speak. He is consistently reaching out His hand to us...but we have to take it. Kind of a weird flip side isn't it? For those of you that are parents of teens, the devotion challenges you to look at your priorities and really be honest about how much time you spend on them. I know a lot of parents of teens that would spend all the time in the world getting to know their kid better...I also have seen parents not so much as give their child a smile. I know there are hurts in being a parent. I know there are times you want to rip your hair out...and I'm not even a parent yet! lol It may be hard to prioritize time with your teen (or even your 6 year old) because you're taking care of providing for them. Do me a favor? Pray about giving God the timing of your day. Let Him help you through the day to pace you...and He'll open up opportunities to interact with your kids and give them the time that will make them feel loved. now for those of you that don't have kids...pray about giving God the timing of your day as well. Let Him help you through the day to pace you....and He'll open up opportunities to spend time with Him :)

Don't worry...I'm doing it too ;)


Thursday, February 3, 2011

This is the stuff...

I've had this song stuck in my head for the past week or so. Francesca Batistelli - This Is The Stuff. It reminds me of how I can be. How much God uses in my life to teach and shape my character.

I don't lose my keys that often and I don't usually get speeding tickets (let's hope that continues ;) ). I keep singing it at work and even find myself thinking the words through out the day. I don't know what I'm supposed to be getting from having it non-stop in my head...but maybe that's the point? I know I'm learning something, maybe God is just trying to get me to realize that the things I beat myself up over are not the end of the world. The things I let frustrate me really are not all that bad.

So, for the update!

For all of you wondering what I'm doing with all my time now, I'm working! LOL Duh right? (does anybody say duh anymore? I used it a lot when I was younger and find myself wanting to say it...bu thinking, "I'm an adult...I can't say duh...especially not to another adult!"...anyway) My position is pretty much amazing. I love what I do. I'm an admin/media editor/IT/anything else person for a real estate brokerage. Now, you may be asking yourself why I would have taken this kind of position in this economy...well...because it's stable really. The company is actually growing. It's small at the moment but we've already seen growth in a division. We're also not your typical real estate team. It's a much better way of doing business and I really like it.

Brandon and Shauna to be around, great to talk to and all around really good people. I keep telling B that we should just hang out with Brandon :) He's around our age! lol

So, that's what I've been doing. B and I are also super involved in the kid's ministry at church now. It's really a blessing and I'm already seeing personal growth and growth in the kids.

Tuesday night I go to women's connection group...and let me tell you! We have some fun. LOL it really is a great group :)

So, life is full...but don't worry...I'm still reading every day and trying to figure out how to post about it :)